Part II

You asked me tonight if the feeling was mutual
or somewhat similiar
When I asked myself the question
The answer came out clear
but not concrete

I know what I want
I know what I need
But I'm afraid the answer would just
blow your mind like a strong gust

I don't want to make the confusion any worse then it already is
I'll try to be gentle and write you this
yet another poem but it's the way I know
and the only way I can really make it show

What I want whole heartedly is you
'til the day you tell me to fuck off or my bridges are burned
I'll be on you like I was covered in glue

A feeling I can't identify nor control is
slowly rising in power by the day
Perhaps only time will show me a way
To kill the feeling once and for all

The feeling itself is not envy nor jelousy
But You say his name and I cover in fear
I see my cave and I know it can grant me shelter
I can't explain or make the point anymore clear

These words aren't half of what they should be
There's something blocking me
A thought, few words, a phrase I hold so dear
Is it right of me to feel this fear

There are no rules in love and war
Only those who give it all and those who do more
For so long have I stood by the side and done nothing at all
This time I give it my all, starting this fall.

I'm not here to fight a war I can't win
My thoughts are many so my vision is thin
I may have missed a sign somewhere along the road
Show me a sign and I'll raise the white flag

I miss you more by the minute that goes by
Hearing you say how you miss me
brings hope to this restless soul of mine
I just can't seem to understand
somethings in life
no matter how hard I try
memories from before just keeps driving by

I know I can trust you I just need it confirmed
What we said back then was it all just for show
I'm just as confused as you but the subject's not the same
if I don't find the answer I might go insane

I try to make every day slide by
But somethings hit me like a fork in the eye
now you know what I have on my mind
lend me a hand I'm walking here blind

What I'm trying to say is I miss you girl
The feelings I get when I see your face
So pretty, so full of grace
I just feel to old to participate in another chase

I miss the nights when I could feel your warmth
Your head on my shoulder and your hand so close to mine
I'd give anything to feel it again some time

I told you today how special you are
You are the first to know all those things I said
besides myself and those it concern
No more games, No more plays
This time it's real no matter what anyone else says

I give you a promise tonight
if I'm forced I'll be there to fight
I'll give it all I got and then some more
Cause there ain't a chance in hell I will lose a war

All these words may seem useless and empty
But in the end it's just me trying to defeat the enemy inside
my notorious mind playing these tricks
trying to bring me down and fold under it's will

Give me the strength I need to proceed
Give me a sign it's still true what we both agreed
So I can put my mind to the test
and finally get a good nights rest...

I may have said it before but I'll say it again
Girl, I miss you.....